So to make a long story short (woops.. made a short story long.. sorry >< )
I have been feeling crap for at least a year.. just really unmotivated and generally dull..

So anyway I got a blood test last week as part of a general checkup.. wanted to see how my liver is holding up under constant abuse and stuff... liver was fine but it turned out that I only had 1/3 as much hemoglobin as I shouldve .. That's the thing that transports oxygen around your body WTF!

Anyhow they made me go to hospital immediately.. which was a bit funny because they were telling me I was sick to the point i could have a heart attack... but I had been at work when they told me..

Anyway they pumped me up with 9 bags of blood and let me out.. I've still gotta get tests to figure out WHY it was fucked.. but now that I've had all the hemoglobin replaced I gotta say...

I FEEL FUCKIN FANTASTIC! Like a million trillion gazillion bucks...

Apparently it was a slow steady decline over possbily up to 18 months that fucked me up.. so I didnt really notice at the time that I was losing energy and stuff... but now that they've boosted me back to regular levels over like 3 days, I feel like I am floating when I walk because its so much easier.. and mentally I feel alot better too... I feel like I'm 18 again or something ridiculous!

Now that I look back I was ridiculously pale.. I just thought it was cos I never went outside though.. Also it's really weird but my fingernails changed shape, even in just the last couple days.. They said it would happen but i didnt believe it could happen so quickly ... weird

But anyway.... if you've been feeling a bit shit.. maybe get a blood test hey?

Feel like my old self again... fuck settling down and relaxing I wanna paaaaaaarty

good shit man... heart attacks aint cool (had one @ 23 from getting tasered)

so be happy that was caught... and go make SOME BEATS!!!

sn: the fingernail thing is a bit weird, lol

fuck!....
didn't knew this niq...


@cartesia:
we have to became vampire to live better, ahah, viva dracula!

At first I thught it's because of G.A.S. like it was in my situation, but damn...

Real story, lifes full of accidents.

what up Cart

I feel you on that. I'm an anemic myself but my problem is lack of red cells. Most of the time I just feel tired and weak and I could sleep two days straight and still can't recharge. Eating half cooked steak gets me back in the game though and I visit the doctor regulary.

When I make beats and rhymes it takes alot out of me. The creativity is there but the lack of energy keeps me from finishing stuff. Breathing exercises help me too because it brings a good supply of oxygen and prevents me from getting sick with something which I'm vunerable to catch.

Good to see you back on your feet.

@ella its a long story but ill pm u the details when i can

Great Cartesia, I'm happy for ya!

ill, that's a bad thing, but don't worry your rhymes give me energy, now the swamp plaugue ep is on my car on a cd and sometimes it's good to hear it before entering the grey building where i work




ok niq, i would like to hear it

Its not that bad Ella when you got it under control. Sometimes years go by and you won't deal with it but then it just comes.

Whats interesting though is that I get high very fast if I inhale a few puffs. I usually just smoke half a blunt and save it for the next day. And thats what Roaches in the Organ was about. It was about all these fat roaches I had building up in my studio.

dam, these are some crazy stories. beatmakers triumphs over adversity. the body is such a fuckin fragile thing man. thats why its good to take care of it cause it affects everything you do. when i go running in the morning at like 5am(usually happens once a month) im up at like 7am making some dope shit and my brain is on overdrive. ive dealt with some thyroid problems in the past and now i have to take a pill everyday for the rest of my life. even wrote a track about it that ive yet to record, on some real shit, i talk abotu so much fucked up shit in my life that i cried the first time i tried to record it and just stayed away from it. one day it'll be recorded but none of us would be producing beats if there wasnt something in us that we needed ro relieve. although its probably a passion, theres also a reason why thats deeper than just because we like it. beat therapy or some shit.

just thought of this...
there should be an sp convention where we all could meet and put on a live show for each other. that be pretty fuckin awesome. like we meet in the middle of the US, like burning man and just rock out and see each other face to face.
just thinking out loud, just sounds like we got a cool ass group of dudes on here.

that's ^^ one of the few 'met online, met in real life' things i'd be into, actually.

CARTS! that's fuggin' awesome you got it figured out man. it sounds crazy, and sounds like you were pretty far along, but i'm glad you got it worked out to the point where yr no longer in danger of just dropping!

well the good news is I feel great...

the bad news is tomorrow I'm getting spitroasted by a camera tube.. and today I have to drink a bunch of industrial strength laxatives... not looking forward to this afternoon!

dude! glad you got that sorted, can't imagine how listless you must've felt while so drained

hope the next tests find more data which can help get you back on the track to full health

i've done the old camera spitroast, found ulcers in my stomach. stress-related

interestingly, my fingernails are fucked - weird shape, white, and lifting off the bed. i thought it may be diet-related, could it be due to blood? might get that looked at, ey

damn dude! That's crazy! Good thing you're OK...get back on those beats! haha


We all have health problems...and most of us don't even know it. Your skin will always show the first sign of any internal health issue. If your hands sweat a lot, that's also a sign of heart problems. SO many ways our bodys can tell us there is something wrong...but we usually end up ignoring it and just living with the feeling--eventually just coping with the problem instead of taking care of it--Im guilty.


ON a somewhat random note; I have heart problems. My heart has all kinds of problems staying on beat. I can't do anything about that...so I think of it as if my heart just isnt quantized.