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 Post subject: well i almost died sunday night
PostPosted: Wed Aug 04, 2021 4:47 am 
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 Post subject: Re: well i almost died sunday night
PostPosted: Wed Aug 04, 2021 9:14 am 
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Jeez .. that's heavy .

Hope you're doing okay dude .

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Weren’t you mentioning you had a bad liver and didn’t have long to live??

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Danswift wrote:
Jeez .. that's heavy .

Hope you're doing okay dude .

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Weren’t you mentioning you had a bad liver and didn’t have long to live??


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yeah idk if i ever exactly said i didn't have long to live, prolly said something more like it was foreseeable that i'd succumb to my illnesses, but it turned out the first doctor whose opinion i received on my liver was an idiot (and tbh i wish i could sue for malpractice). i went to a specialist a while back and found out it was nowhere near as serious as i was initially led to believe.
i'm honestly over the whole talking about myself bullshit that i used to be on with this forum, so i'm honestly frustrated i have to talk about this shit bc you brought that up but
i have a deformed spine that causes my entire body to become unaligned (yes it's immensely painful every waking moment of my life, went to physical therapy for ~5 years and have to do rigorous physical therapy on my own for my entire life if i want to keep the ability to walk, which i haven't been doing lately but have been using substances to dull the pain instead)
thyroid disease and autoimmune disease run on both sides of my family, and i started becoming affected by it around 3 years ago. that's when my arthritis started. whenever i stick to a rigorous regiment of exercise, proper diet, and avoidance of intoxicants, my symptoms become much more manageable (and that exercise is incredibly fucking painful) but i've been going through a lot lately and have been pretty much just shutting down and living in reclusion. my older sister suffers from the same autoimmune disease. however, she's been dealing with it for many more years and has been doing virtually nothing to fight it that entire time, so recently her condition has become so increasingly poor that she is bedridden most of the time. her immune system is attacking her own muscles/nerves. she is the only real family i have left besides a bigoted egomaniac father who didn't raise me and my sociopathic brother (who my sister, my father, and i don't associate with because of his affinity for incredibly malicious behavior). my sister actually raised me more than my abusive mother did. the fact that i might lose her soon is seriously fucking me up.
i've also been suffering from insomnia since around 8 years old or so. bc my abusive mother malnourished me, i developed severe allergies and eczema, which she decided to manage by shoving a variety of pills down my throat every day (which is most likely why i started suffering from insomnia at such a young age). to this day, my body is still affected by what it went through during my childhood.
that whole misconception of my liver's condition came from a dumb ass nurse (who performed an ultrasound on my liver) that i naively decided to trust during my stay in a mental hospital for detox from heroin and alcohol. the doctor i was assigned while there vaguely reinforced the nurse's suggestion that it was incredibly severe smh. just btw, during my stay there, i was formally diagnosed (by a real doctor) with obsessive compulsive disorder, major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, and chronic insomnia.
my dermatitis (eczema is atopic dermatitis, seborrheic dermatitis is on your scalp) is severe and chronic, my chronic insomnia obviously causes chronic fatigue, and i've also recently been developing symptoms of peripheral neuropathy.
i'm also afflicted by literally eternal upper respiratory tract infection and excess earwax/earwax impaction (probably due mostly to the substance abuse).

basically, i'm an absolute mess, and it's a miracle that i manage to get a single thing done on any particular day. now the mystery is gone, and everyone who reads this will know about my health problems in detail. woohoo

p.s. the initial image post in this thread shows my 2004 Honda CR-V in the aftermath of a 70mph ~6 car pileup in the rain on the evening of 8/1/2021

miraculously, i walked away somewhat battered and bruised with minor whiplash and a considerable headache (and i pissed a bit of blood right after the accident) but otherwise unscathed.
although, the crash keeps replaying in my head, i've been having an incredibly anxious/inexplicably uneasy feeling, nothing feels real, and my depression is 100000000000x stronger than usual. so that's wonderful

oh also i asked the tech in the E.R. for a copy of my CT scans (if i'm going to subject myself to dangerous levels of radiation and medical bills, i should at least try to get something out of it, right?) and she burned me a few discs containing them.....but i'm too reluctant to look inside of my brain and body and shit so they've just been sitting on my desk...

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The last thing we need is another utube sampling digital lo-fi anime beat maker.

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"If you want that '90s sound, record at 12 bit as HOT as you can."


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PostPosted: Thu Aug 05, 2021 7:26 pm 
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Fuck man sorry you had to go through that.

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PostPosted: Wed Aug 18, 2021 11:09 am 
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Sorry to hear about all that, and it looks like you had a very lucky escape if the mess it made of your wheels is anything to go by!

Just wanted to say that although I don't have to deal with the issues you are having to deal with, I do have my own issues and here's something I've recently come to respect as indisputible (in my opinion anyway). What I've learnt is that first of all the most important thing of all in healing your body is pure water. By "pure" though, I really do mean "pure" and what that means is "Distilled Water".

Distilled water is one of TWO things I have have recently come to believe is intentionally being kept out of the public eye by MSM to protect big pharma's profits. Distilled water is the purest and surely therefore best thing you can put into your body. It is so good for you that people actually get high on it (no kidding). People who detoxify their body on a diet of Distilled Water often report getting high. The reason for it is that as your body detoxifies completely due to the water being absolutely pure and free from toxins, is that you regain sensation and a feeling of wellbeing that was previously only had by your body when you were a child and your organs had not been subjected to what life has thrown at them. The older you get, the more toxic your organs become, and that's presumably why Distilled Water is the wonder-drug that it is.

The people who report getting high aren't actually getting high, it's just that they're slowly bringing the proper functioning of their organs back into play as it has its knock-on effect throughout the body by detoxifying your Blood, your Kidneys, Heart, Liver etc.

So there's Distilled Water, and there's a vegatable called "Kale". Kale is now rightly referred to as the "Super-Food" that it is. I could go into great detail about why Kale is important but I won't, needless to say that "Kale", along with "Distilled Water" are, in my opinion and after tons of research and attempts to debunk all the bullshit out there, THE best fluid and food you can consume to fix yourself.

I'm no doctor but in my opinion, you should stay the fuck away from drugs and anything the doctors want to give you. It's all about "Big Pharma" and "Profits", they couldn't give a flying fuck about what these drugs are doing to your body, or how toxic they make it.

It it surely common sense that the purest of fluids is the best of fluids if you want to fix yourself. Both of these things are generally kept out of the public eye by the MSM, and this can only be for the benefit of Big Pharma, because try as they mnight, these two things can only improve matters for you as far as I can see. Just remember, it's not possible for Big Pharma to discredit these two things, as much as it must be burning them up inside wanting to do so.

I would not be surprised if a regular and intense diet of Distilled Water and Kale could even cure cancer. Cancer is an inpurity, so personally I cannot think of a better combination than drinking the best, most natuarl and purest detoxifying liquid known to mankind, and backing it up with Kale, a super-food cram-packed with anti-cancer goodies.

You can laugh at me for this post or you can take notice of it, it's entirely up to you.

And just before I end the post, one final thing I will say is that you need to get your compacted ear-wax dealt with immediately. That alone is going to effect your mental state in ways you cannot even imagine. Having your hearing needlessly effected like that is surely a constant stress even if it might not feel like a priority. Get your ears seen to ASAP and you'll feel a lot better about it afterwards. With a clear head (and hearing) again, you can then concentrate on fixing the rest of you (and your sister), perhaps by watching a few videos about Kale and Distilled Water (and even how to make it at home).

Personally, I think that if "Distilled Water" and "Kale" cannot fix you, then nothing can. This post is my opinon, is posted in good faith and is not intended as official medical advice. Anyone reading this is solely responsible for any decisions they might make after reading it. I'd like to say "always consult a doctor", but as far as I'm concerned they're just slaves to Big Pharma.

On the other hand, getting "high" on Distilled Water is the polar opposite to getting high on drugs. One is a result of positive effect on the body, the other is a result of damage to the body. I know which I'd rather subject my body to (especially if I needed fixing).

Watch some YouTube videos on the subject of Distilled Water, Kale, and how they work to prevent cancer, ailments, and aid slimming and organ repair. Be carefull to avoid the BS videos though, YouTube is also full of bullshitters who haven't a clue :lol:


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...Distilled water is one of TWO things I have have recently come to believe is intentionally being kept out of the public eye by MSM to protect big pharma's profits. Distilled water is the purest and surely therefore best thing you can put into your body....

Are you serious? :shock:
Zendan, you do what you feel is right, but this is bull shit in my opinion.
Pure distilled bull shit :lol:


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PostPosted: Thu Aug 19, 2021 8:23 am 
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Best water is from rivers flowing from mountains. Its full of minerals and vitamins.

I was drinking bottled water at my job when my friend arrived from a mountain trip. He said try this water. Man! When I drank it my eyes opened wide, the little frustration I had just slipped away, I felt great in a single sip.


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PostPosted: Thu Aug 19, 2021 8:35 am 
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there are a lot more foods out there heavy in nutrients and antioxidants than just kale, trust that!! i mostly eat my own home cooked meals, mostly organic stuff (even though i can't really afford it i'm an idiot lmfao) i also cook with turmeric very often! and i don't eat a lot of meat (if i do, it's antibiotic and hormone free good shit) i have a very good diet, trust that, but i have some serious hereditary health problems as well as my deformed spine (been in physical therapy/doing it myself at home rigorously daily since i was 15 years old in 2012, only recently stopped 3 years ago bc of a lot of fucked up shit that happened to me and i turned to drugs to cope with the pain instead of the constant ridiculous exercise) i just need to find the motivation to start the rigorous....tedious.... constant....dreadfully painful.... exercise again.... my life has been extremely fucked up lately so i don't see much of a reason to go through the effort and pain. maybe i'll have a change of heart. who knows

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The last thing we need is another utube sampling digital lo-fi anime beat maker.

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he can turn water into a beat, and feed a thousand dancehalls with only two drumbreaks

"If you want that '90s sound, record at 12 bit as HOT as you can."


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also, the water where i live is radioactive because of the extensive fracking for oil. our state government lies when they do their safety evaluations on the water, they falsify the results, because big oil pays them off. it's fucked up, you can easily test it yourself and see. there's pretty much no viable, practical way to remove radiation from water either, and it invades the entire ecosystem. everything out here is basically radioactive, there's a ton of cancer. basically unavoidable lmao thanks late-stage capitalism, thank you sociopathic oligarchs :P

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HAWTKARL wrote:
The last thing we need is another utube sampling digital lo-fi anime beat maker.

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he can turn water into a beat, and feed a thousand dancehalls with only two drumbreaks

"If you want that '90s sound, record at 12 bit as HOT as you can."


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Radioactive water, man, I hadn't thought of that. I've no idea whether the process of distilling water is able to remove radioactivity from it, but I get the feeling it can't. But surely if it can be proven through tests that your drinking water is radioactive, then you can sue their backsides into oblivion, right?

Bloody hell, no wonder ol' Leather Face used to take women and turn them into suits to dress-up in. Wasn't he from your neck of the woods? I see you're in Dallas, and I believe that's in Texas, home of ol' Leather Face and the Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Pity he didn't have a fetish for making suits out of radioactive corporate leaders instead, cause if anyone needs to be skinned alive, surely those bastards do.

And what's the situation with your wheels by the way? There's no way they can repair that mess, so do you at least get a new set of wheels out of it? And what about the whiplash and pissing of blood? I hope you're being compensated!


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lmao nah i only have liability insurance, i can't afford anything more, and i just got a call the other day and found out that the piece of shit that was 50% responsible for the accident besides the disabled vehicle is trying to get money for his own fuck up (and almost killing me) and ruin my insurance rates in the process, shit really pissed me off but honestly i'm a grown man and i started bawling on the phone with my insurance just thinkin about how financially fucked i am hahahahahhahaha ahhh man sorry ass shit fr

my totaled car was towed to the dallas auto pound, and it would literally cost me more to pay the fees to get my car back and sell it myself than to just leave it there and never think about it again.

that was my daily driver for years, and i used it for a lot of things that a normal car can't do, moving big things, but i got my old shitbox bmw running again like 10 days after the accident.... pray for me that it doesn't break down because she's extremely finicky

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The last thing we need is another utube sampling digital lo-fi anime beat maker.

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he can turn water into a beat, and feed a thousand dancehalls with only two drumbreaks

"If you want that '90s sound, record at 12 bit as HOT as you can."


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Shouldn't be allowed, it's the result of living in a society where the citizen has no power.
I'm sincerely sorry to hear you're getting all this bullshit hurled at you.

Chin-up, dude, I'm not sure a "prayer" will help you, but ok, here it goes ...

Dear God, we ask that you protect our zindan.
That his clapped-out BMW does not fail him.
That the worn-out pads of his beloved 404 remain forever functional.
And above all, that you provide him good health and radiation-free water.

Amen.

PS: And don't forget his devoted sister, either!

Amen.


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Shouldn't be allowed, it's the result of living in a society where the citizen has no power.
I'm sincerely sorry to hear you're getting all this bullshit hurled at you.

Chin-up, dude, I'm not sure a "prayer" will help you, but ok, here it goes ...

Dear God, we ask that you protect our zindan.
That his clapped-out BMW does not fail him.
That the worn-out pads of his beloved 404 remain forever functional.
And above all, that you provide him good health and radiation-free water.

Amen.

PS: And don't forget his devoted sister, either!

Amen.


greatly appreciated my friend

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btw my bimmer broke down today and i was stuck on the side of the road in the heat for an hour :) accessory belt came off the guides, so everything started failing, overheated like crazy, alternator wasn't charging the battery, all that good shit, hopefully it just needs a new belt maybe new guides.... hopefully there wasn't any serious damage bc i pulled over as soon as i noticed my gauges and dials and smelled burning plastic

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The last thing we need is another utube sampling digital lo-fi anime beat maker.

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he can turn water into a beat, and feed a thousand dancehalls with only two drumbreaks

"If you want that '90s sound, record at 12 bit as HOT as you can."


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Wow, assuming you're not joking, someone up there must really have it in for you.
If it's any consolation, I know the feeling mate, so you're not alone!

Bless you my child :wink:


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